Nothing beats sitting in front of the fire in winter

One of my favourite things in the world in sitting in front of the fire at home reading a good book or 5!

I can't wait until the holidays, it's going to be amazing!!

Been a While

So many things have happened since i last logged on here... where to start! hmm last post was in 2009.

Since 2009, i have had a boyfriend, and have lost a boyfriend, no it was not because i forgot where i put him.

We had some awesome times and made some great memories, will definitely miss those moments.

Grizabella has had kittens,

We have watched them grow up and have given them away to new families. I hear they are doing very well.

Poppa passed away during November 2010, in the middle of my exams. I will miss him greatly, he was an amazing man with such a heart for God, his family and everyone he met. If i end up with half the faith he had i will be more than happy, for he had such a heart for the Lord.

I took these photos after the funeral, Poppa always loved his garden and while these aren't from his, they remind me of his love for it.

Girl has had 3 calves; Fella, GG and Sukey Girl

She passed away on ANZAC day this year after having Sukey Girl, which was devastating, i sat with her for a week in the yard watching and praying that she'd be ok, sadly, she didn't pick up, and left me to look after her beautiful week old calf.

I passed all my subjects in 2010 which was wonderful, however this year does not look so promising.

I'll Try

I Love this song by Jonatha Brooke so much.

There are times when i can relate to all parts of this song, and i think that's why i love it so much, the transformation from hopelessness, to seeing the world as it should be, and holding onto that hope and faith.




I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself.
I mustn't let them down now.
I mustn't let them see me cry.
I'm fine, I'm fine.

I'm to tired to listen.
I'm to old to believe.
All these childish stories.
There is no such thing as faith & trust & pixie dust.

I try but its so hard to believe.
I try but I can't see where you see.
I try, I try, I try.

My whole world is changing.
I don't know where to turn.
I can't leave you waiting.
But I can't stay and watch the city burn.
Ohh watch'it burn.

Cause I try but it's so hard to believe.
I try but I can't see where you see.
I try, I try.

I try and try to understand the distance and between.
The love I feel the things I fear and every single dream.

I can finally see it.
Now I have to believe all those precious stories.
All the world is made of faith and trust and pixie dust.

So I'll try cause I finally believe.
I'll try cause I can see where you see.
I'll try, I'll try
I will try, I'll try to fly.

New Family Members

Grizabella just had two beautiful kittens today, around 4pm.

I first noticed she might be having them, when she followed me to my room, curled up next to me on my bed, and would not stop squirming, as well as the occasional grip she'd get on my hands with her teeth.

So i took her to the laundry and an hour or so after that she delivered a beautiful apricot/peach coloured kitten, and then about half an hour later a peach coloured one with black tips. They both fit in my hands beautifully.

Break This Heart

Laughter comes through heartache
Growing comes through pain
And Lord, I know You’re slowly
Teaching me
I have to lose to gain
I’ve been all too careful
Of vessels and of jars
So won’t you let your love
Break through the walls
Releasing what you are


Break this heart
Let it be open
I know it is no good
Till all the bitterness is gone
Make my life
A vessel that’s broken
So I can someday help
The one who falls

There’s nothing worse than nothing
To live yet not to feel
I’ve been numb to all the suffering
A heart as cold as steel
Make me strong and tender
Take away my fears
And won't You give me holy insight, Lord
And wash my eyes with tears

Break this heart
Let it be open
I know it is no good
Till all the bitterness is gone
Make my life
A vessel that’s broken
So I can someday help
The one who falls

So I came someday help
The one who falls

The number of times I have prayed this.......

God grant me the
Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change
Courage
to change the things I can and
Wisdom
to know the difference.


This prayer is one that hung on the wall of the bedroom i always stayed in when i went to visit Grandma and Poppa, I learnt it there and have never forgotten it. It will be one memory of visiting them that i carry with me forever.

My Friend

What would I do without you?
You strengthen me when I need it, even when I don't.
You're always there for me, even when you're not.
You've seen me laugh, and you've seen me cry.
There is nothing I could say to make you leave me,
there is nothing I could do to make you love me more or less.
You're not afraid to tell me when I am doing the wrong thing, even when I'm not.
You listen to my words and treat them as if they were pure gold.
You remember things about me that even I have forgotten, even things I have never said or done.
You're someone I can count on when times get rough to stick with me till the end.
I know that whatever happens, as long as I have you my friend, we'll pull through.
You are there when things are going well, someone to share and make memories with.
You're my true friend, you understand my past, believe in my future and accept me today, the way I am.
Who could ask for a better friend?